Fear

I don’t fear death but a cage without a key. Prolonged life for the sake of more years is not a life but a meaningless void. I would rather live one year and live it to its fullest than live a hundred and never step outside and take a leap. Nothing of great consequence has…

That Place

I’ve always struggled with the reality that life is and will be hard. Confusion washes over me as I reflect on the days that use to be. I’ve never experienced pain that landed me in a hospital but I think I might take that over the overwhelming happiness and sorrow of a life that is…

The Beautiful Reality

Recently while watching a captivating show, I came to the closer I thought I had already. I once thought forgiveness was enough, then for a moment just having the memories was the closer I needed but tonight as I watched the realization came, alongside the main character in the show, that loving someone but letting…

The Possible End of a Passion

A friend once told me that my biggest stumbling block wasn’t me, but my love of drink. At the time I thought or pretended to know what he was talking about but as the years pass me without her I think I am beginning to see what he saw. I love wine, that is a…

Lost in Nature

I remember as a young child praying to a God I wasn’t aware of, asking him to give me a life that wasn’t boring. Yet…I am afraid I may have bit off more than I can chew. I could write a novel regarding my short time on this earth and it wouldn’t seem real but…

Writing and that City

Writing has become the escape I needed when times have been a bit hard, that and Mozart. I love to escape to the stories I have begun and I hope someday dear reader that you at least like some of the characters, (I think I have a few good ones to tell). Writing when there…

The Horror

I’ve always been an avid fan of horror, the kind that goes bump in the night,(not the blood and guts). I love the plot of a family of a sort trying to figure out with you what is going on in the setting of the film or novel. It wasn’t until I found the film…

Photographic Memories

It’s an odd thing, when living in a moment becomes down the road, not a merely a moment but a life altering event. I had taken a photo on what would seem an ordinary November afternoon but as the years since then has show me ,it is a photo I can’t and I am unwilling…

Far Away

It weights as heavy as an iron bar tied to an ankle. I feel as if I am going down into the depths of the sea and yet…I see the light and while I know I will reach it, I hate the wait. I know in my heart and soul fatherhood will come even if…

The Reason

Early on in the day I thought I would discuss a topic that has been weighing on me, but then as I was walking home, I shifted my thoughts to something beautiful. At the present moment I am not doing what I believe I was meant to do and while I have many talking bobbleheads…